recently discovered a hernia I got in Chile that I'll need operated. When I was in Chile, I was also
diagnosed with depression. While I wasn't homesick and working hard, I've learned depression can hit like any other illness and I definitely never thought it would happen to me. Although I had reached out to my mission president and leaders during this time for priesthood blessings, and after scripture reading, prayerful pleading, and sleepless nights, I was on a plane within a 24 hour notice.
Serving in the States has been a humbling and strengthening transition. My stake president called the church missionary department to negotiate me going back out before the 6 month requirement; it was determined that I can send my papers again on August 7th. To try to stay somewhat in missionary mentality, I haven't gotten a phone or job as I continue to study and serve in the MTC, temple, and with the missionaries every day. Anyhow, you who is reading these words have shown me the value of true compassion and support. Sometimes, we need to let others help us. All the time, we must allow Christ to heal us, for He loves us so much that He lets us hurt for a season.
For example, Christ knew that Lazarus was going to die but He didn't visit him until the sisters asked Him to. Similarly, Christ knew the sick woman had thought to be healed by touching Him but did not stop until she did. Because He will not nullify our agency, we must act first to permit our Savior to rescue us. There are no dead ends, ends of the line, or endings for that matter when we always remember Him.
Love, Hermana Jerman
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